Tuesday, December 25, 2007
♥2:19 AM
the one who's got enough of me to break my heartwhat if i tell you that everything that you believe is sacred is what i think is disgusting and dirty?what if i say that sometimes when i am alone i questioned my faith? what if i say that there were times where i believe i will die in a carcrash? what if i tell you that i've imagine how my death would be and whats left is just to execute it? what if i tell you my main purpose in life is to not fit in and all i want to do is to be left alone? what if i say that i would rather just get shipped to africa and not worry about my future? what if i tell you that instead of forgetting and forgiving i rather be angry as i believe once i forgive, i will feel pain? what if i say i torture myself so no one would have the credit of putting me through unbearable pain? what if i say that once in a while i wonder what would happen if i really do pull trigger? what if i say that i dare not let anyone in cause i dare not put myself in a position of vulnerability?
what will you do if i tell you that i am just plain scared, what will you do?
"Best start putting first things first."
Cause when your hourglass runs out of sand
You can't flip over and start again
xoxo
umairah ali bafana